Sunday, March 28, 2010

true faith..


We all need nourishment to survive in life.

Today, I am again full with spiritual nourishment which the faithful and discreet slave prepared in accordance to Jah's instruction. The talk is very inspirational and reminds us that no one can even surpass Jah's power and wisdom. This holds true as it reflects the state of the world. No matter who may be appointed as a political ruler, no one can really eradicate the constant problems we have.It really is an assuring thought that someday, Jah will address everything in His own time.

On the other note, I was again reunited with my brothers and sisters.♥

Friday, March 26, 2010

hairspray..


Before I heave-ho from work, I am gonna let you in on a little secret..♥

Drumroll....Ta na na nan ta na!..I'm getting a new hairdo!..

This is not really a big top secret though, by Monday everyone at work is going to notice the big change for sure. I'm seriously praying hard that they just let me be and not make a fuss about it.

Hope I get off with a similar hair in the pic.

I will post a pic after for an update.

Can't wait!..

Have a great weekend you guys!...c",)!

word games



Why am i very susceptible to words? I always pray hard to Jah to make me indifferent to mean remarks, but to no avail!...

Tonight as I was about to take a shower, a housemate commented on my weight loss. " Dauta nmu lar oi" ( You are so thin, Lar! )

I have been getting quite a lot of similar comments lately. Though at first I just shrug it off, being thankful for even being alive and healthy despite of the arduous work schedule plus emotional struggles that has been going through in my life, I can't help but feel alarmed by it's ever growing constancy.

It must be something I just don't want to address or maybe it's something that I do not want to deal with, at this time. I really do not need negative remarks, NO, not at this time. Especially when I'm at my most vulnerable. It just bothers me that people nowadays just don't watch words they throw away at someone. ( This realization made me think twice as hard especially now that I AM the victim. )Now, I should be really careful with what I say, cause WORDS, even at it's simplest form can really change one's mood or suffice it to say, life.

Now, since I would like to be a 'solutions woman', what to do, what to do? ☻

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

turning japanese...






Funny how I completely forgot to speak Japanese.

Tonight I went out with a tomodachi to meet her Japanese friend named Takahashi who comes over every now and then for business trips and is scouting for native staff who knows their tongue. We had a convo with his staff named Endo regarding details pertinent for the job op. The very fact that fluency in speaking Nihon Go seems to have left me and is a luxury I don't have anymore is very amusing, yet disturbing. I found myself stuttering, racking my brain for the right words to say.


The meeting was concluded with a sumptuous Japanese dinner.

In the end, though I seriously think we barely understood each other on most part of the convo, I still enjoyed the rendezvous. Takahashi was great, I truly enjoyed talking to a true blue Nihon-jin after how many years.

But most of all, the food said it all. Sashiburi ne!..

Here's a glimpse of what we had that night.♥

Itadaikimasu!...

Friday, February 12, 2010

surprise surprise!

I love surprises and cannot resist sharing it. Here goes:




Basking in the glory of pure delights: My little bug has her two front teeth and counting..!

Love it! ♥♥♥

Thursday, February 11, 2010

catching up...


I'm back! Though this is just a quick update of what's happening at dear life.

Today was a mixture of emotions. Tired, happy, anxious, excited, etc!

Tired due to the Vegas show; lots of things to do! The fog of pressure is too thick too handle!

Happy because I was able to book a schedule for the most anticipated trip of my life. ♥

Anxious - darn I need to finish enormous paperworks and I am not sure if I am lucky enough to meet the deadline and I am beat!

Excited - it's almost weekend; finally!

It's February guys!..

Monday, February 1, 2010

letter from the scorned...

Today, I am going to share a very special letter which inspired me a lot. Cheers to all single moms like me!....♥


"You might wonder who I am. Let's skip that part. What I have to say is more important than knowing who both of us are. Surprisingly, the fact that we don't know each other at all, making a note for you comes with neither effort nor uncertainty. After all, I am one of those who are not afraid in speaking their thoughts.

First things first, I met your husband in a very circumstantial incident. A little of everything namely peer pressure, fun's sake, unwinding moments and etc basically initiated a relative whirlwind connection between the two of us. Excuse me for being blatantly honest, but that's all there is to it. It wasn't your typical meeting; in fact it's highly unconventional. I will not elaborate on the details; feel free to ask your husband about it. I'll cross my fingers and hope he will tell you the truth but that is highly improbable. I tell you, he is the most infantile person I had ever met in my lifetime. Wait, I retract that, this one’s better: NO negative adjective would ever be appropriate to describe him at all! I mean, who would have thought that he would fool around saying he is SINGLE and UNATTACHED, when in fact he has an impregnated fiancĂ©e at that time? What kind of a person is that? I was totally totally innocent about it. He was quite a player, I tell you. Worse, after the trust I gave him on that night of intoxication, he still toed the line and did it anyway. Can you believe it? It was January of last year when he gave me rundown of what he wants to happen. Live together, get a nanny when the baby comes around and get married. Settle down cause he’s not getting any younger and lies lies lies. Only to find out that he is in fact, tied up to you! And worse, you just gave birth and your baby is like 3 months??? You might be shocked if I will tell you all the details of his recent activity.

Now you are probably asking: what is this girl trying to drive at? What is her point? Why? Good question.The year is coming to an end. Another opportunity to start a fresh page. I've thought a million times and came up with a plausible decision for both sides involved. To finally let go of all the hurt, pain vulnerabilities and a whole lot of more that you can ever imagine. First step, to let out all of these stuck up emotions. To come right out clean for the upcoming year. I want you to be aware someone is vexed at your husband. I want you to know that I do not have any reason to feel sorry at all. I was made to believe that he is not laden with any responsibilities for that matter. Maybe the only fault you can see in me is that I was vulnerable. I was completely blind of what's going on. What I was feeling right now and what i had been through was unimaginable.

Then lately, I saw your daughter. What a striking resemblance with my little bug except for the color though. My little bug's hide takes after me. Little black beauty in its entire splendor. I realized that on a positive note, I am blessed. Blessed to have my daughter. Blessed despite the hardships of being a single mum struggling to juggle between career and child-rearing. She's a bundle of joy. Smart-ass you might say, takes after me, indeed! She is 7 months and 11 days to date (her half-sister just months older, can you believe that?) and she says MAMA when I come home from work. Remember I asked you how many teeth does your kiddo have? Well, mine has 1 and another 1popping soon! A blessing indeed! And then I saw you...Surprisingly the emotion least expected rose out from me: PITY. I pity the fact that you are tied up to this imbecile kind of a guy. But then love moves in mysterious ways. Maybe Divine Intervention will come and he will realize what a moron he is and start straightening his life and act like a real honest husband and father. I realized that I should not feel sorry for myself at all. I 'was' a victim. Notice the apostrophe in there? I can go ahead and forget everything. What makes me sad is that your husband is such a fool to play around with other people’s emotions. I’m so glad that I never ended up with him. True example of BLESSING in DISGUISE. A man like him can never be trusted. Playing around pretending to be single while his wife is pregnant and even until his baby comes around and yet three months old? I thought to myself: I pity the wife.. She is not even aware how despicable her husband is. Trust, as it were is very important in a relationship. That’s one virtue your husband most certainly does not have and least of all is not even aware of. He does NOT deserve ME at all! I deserve someone way way better than him. Someone more intellectual, professional and respectable.

As I said, I have no reason to be sorry about. I was a victim and is lucky enough to be free in the end. Now that I have said my piece I know that I can leave it from here and let go of the past. Best of all, I have my darling little Emee whom I have a lifetime to spend with. Life is a summary of mixed emotions, beauty and madness, spices to deal with but summing up everything, she is the best thing that came up in this entire hubbub. So, I pray that your family will fare well in all future predicaments. I pray that your daughter will grow up into a wonderful lady and I pray that you will come to realize an idyllic family"

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